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Known as ♥Rara♥,Im 16 this year and Im Waiting for my N level results ! :)
I don't need any comments from you about my blog stuff
I do things my way and I don't need you to tell me what to do
Im nice if you are nice to me,Im sociable to people around me
Im an easy-going person and I love new friends
I may be a Hot-tempered person
Don't get over-the-limit. I'll be sarcastic and pissed you off
HATERS , YOU CAN KILL YOURSELF.
Peanut Butter Bread is my favourite :D
Im short but Im loud
I love people who loves me and I cherish people who cherish me
Friends comes and goes easily,But true friends will always stay
♥Kak Baby♥ is my beloved sister
♥My Beloved Ones♥ are my little babies
If you wanna judge me,then sentence me to next life

Kak Baby.

♥Her blog
She mean everything to me ; She plays an important role in my life
Just like my blood sister
Akak , I love you so much

Dar-links.

 Date: Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Title: :I

Hey guys . I'm blogging again . So yeah .
Started working alr . On monday was my first day of work at Maxmara .
It was much better , Cool and the colleagues there are so damn friendly . I love them man .
Everything went smoothly for my current job .
So on wednesday , was my second day working . Sales day !!!! OMG .
It's like i'm running around to put back all the clothings and serve my customers for changing of sizes and stuffs . i'm like walking back and forth . Met new people and yes , made friends :)
heh . Today , met sis nadiah after work . She waited for me outside Maxmara . Its been a long time i've never seen her & we had our heart to heart talk , smoke-ed , ate our dinner at KFC . We kept on laughing , andd i dont even know why . After that walked around town area then went to harbourfront . She went off to meet her mom and i went of to go home .
Okay . 7 Days more beybehzzz !!! I'm like counting down for my birthday . LOL .
I'm waiting ..
hmm ,, i'll update soon enough alright . Winks .


Will it even come true ?


I'm hopelessly falling for you ..
Maybe we're afraid of words that we haven't said .

And there might be something real between us two , who knew ? 

I love you ...
  


Date: Sunday, November 28, 2010
Title: Sigh ... :((

The way of life im facing now do really sucks alot . Seriously .
Idk what the heck is happening . I feel so broke . Keep on daydreaming . Don't have that appetite to eat tt much . I realize i slim down as im thinking too much , didnt eat that well . Can i just know what's the things that im thinking about ? Fuck sia . seriously . Pbccb . Pekchek uh . haiyys . Have been interviewing for job and just waiting for calls . Hell yeah , somemore my phone prepaid balance got no value , how to call sia . i hope they'll call my house number uh . Urgh ! Then my friends and love ones will be contacting me and i can't even reply them back . Sucks man . Somemore i just wanna go out just to free my mind and have fun with my love ones . Its not that i forget about my family , i do miss them but i just dont know why im used to the atmosphere outside . After all the bad things ive done , and when i think about it back , i feel so down . Just go out put up a fake smile just so that im okay when im not . Sitting by the river is like making me think more and it always make me think of my past and sometimes , you're getting over of that person . Im totally confused and don't know what am i gonna do to have a life that will went smootly . Things are changing , people are changing in their own ways . Wassup with my life man ? Sigh .


Why is everything complicated ? :(


Date: Sunday, November 21, 2010
Title: I'm breaking out

hey peeps .
Life , has been complicated for me since long time ago . It feels so sucks and i really don't know what to do . If really i had a chance to rewind back the time or even start anew again , i really want to . I'm breaking out seriously . i'm out of nowhere being so blank everywhere i go . Have been daydreaming nowadays don't know what am i thinking of . Please  Someone , just help me out . I miss my beloved akak , Kak baby . I miss my sayangg , Zoe . Whom i always talked to , brng out all nonsense funny faces and things together and some other people . OMG . i gotta do something with it . Phuu ......

The only thing worse than being talked about is being talked about .
Love conquers hate .
I'm breaking out .


I'm breaking out .


Date: Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Title: Sometimes love comes around .

Hey . er , i know my blog is boring cause i didn't update for a long time alr . So sorry .
Things went so complicated adn it pull me down seriously . Gosh . why oh why ? hmm .
For the past few days have been meeting up with my akak and yeah . on tuesday never go anywhere . stayed at home . Today , stayed at home still , as my relatives came to my house for visiting for hari raya haji . Had a lot of worked to do and did have fun with my cousins that i'm close with . yeah . So now im just blogging cause firstly , someone said my blog is boring . hahah . and yes , im bored actually . heh . so yeah . Hmm..

I really don't know what to say with what is happening right now . It got so complicated , it brings me down and i really don't know what to do until i feel i'm not myself anymore . Sigh .
Yes , i know what goes around comes around . But i think it's getting worst . It's like , it has taken all of my energy . But whatever it is , i must learn how to live my life and just have to follow the flow of life now . Now , al i think i may have is my akak and my lovely ones that i'm having in my life and im greatful to have them :) Thanks guys .


So that's it .
Will update again ayee .
Winks .


Date: Sunday, November 7, 2010
Title: Oouu ..

Today , went to woodlands to meet up with shah and the rest . After that , headed to meridian jc that's at pasir ris . Damn far la .. alurhs . Nevermind .. i dont mind also . After that , headed to tamp and ate our dinner at kfc :) Got so binget cause of something .. sigh . Then after that go home .
Tomorrow morning will be meeting kak baby :D HUHU . I'm missing her , seriously .
Love her so much :)

Nowadays , i just felt so weak and kept on thinking so much of things that's in my mind and i don't even know what are the things are , actually. It seriously made me go haywire and crazy and lose my strength . Sigh . Things are getting so hard and complicated for me but why ? Fml . 

hmm .. happiness will find me and i know it will someday ..

When i wake up in the morning ,
will you still be here ?


Date: Monday, November 1, 2010
Title: :D !

Today morning went to meet up with akak. She's the sleeping beauty seriously. Must knock her room window then she'll be awake ! Call no use . But nvm, i know her pattern one :) So after everything , headed down to bugis, bugis street, yupp. We had alot of jokes today, in the train, everywhere we go, esp ILUMA ! :D Oouuu ... ;) hehs. After tt took train alight at aljunied then took cab to abg's workplace then me and kak bby teman him for his reporting at bedok. While waiting, i teach kak bby tecktonik and took pictures ! hah . we are the SIAOW EH ~ :) sisters ! When he finish alr, i went home and kak bby and abg went to tamp. Yupp. So yeah ..

PICTURES << I'll wait for kak bby to tag me in fb :)

I LOVE TODAY :) & my SIS ;)


Date: Saturday, October 30, 2010
Title: I've to let go // :(

So today , just stayed at home . Even though im bored at home and i just wanna go out seriously . But i can't . Sigh . Have been lazy at home like pig  Wake up, bathe, eat, go smoke, then come back, went  sheng siong to help my dad. Then went home, relax one corner . Lie down on the carpet and fall asleep for awhile then meet up w someone to pass a letter. After a few hours, went to buy ice cream w my cuzzies then to pasar malam! MY DAD BOUGHT ALOT OF POT OF FLOWER/TREES, whattever it is. Soon my house like garden -.- ! So yeah , Now just blogging . :))

Will update soon :D
I wanna meet up with my akak soon !!! :(

I'm sorry for everything ..
 I guess i've to let go .. I'm feeling so done ..
:((



Date: Thursday, October 28, 2010
Title: Down ... :((

Gosh . today , the day was happy , fun, full of laughter all the way.. In the end , Got scolded . gosh !! I'm so sorry... I just need someone , like NW !!!!!!!! AKAK !!!!




I'm so down ! tsk .
I need my akak's help ! :(( !!!


Date: Monday, October 25, 2010
Title: SORT UH !

FUCKTARD ! Seriously . It's fucking made me go sort and haywire and keep on saying FUCK FUCK FUCK !!! NB . Youu just dont understand that i'm not used to it ! I'm like pushing myself youu know or not huh ? Fuck . In the end , angry angry say out my sayangg's name when she's no even inside this problem . Argh . She's my sayangg an i've told youu that . dont have have to be jealous uh serious . You just follow what's your flow of your temper and BOOM ! just throw out to me . THANKS UH . Yes , my friends are important to me , okay ?? I dnt know what else i ca say .. But im really going so sort now !!!! You're being stupid just to settle problem and do stupid stuffs . GONE .

THANKS TO CLARE AND ZOE SAYANGG . :D whuu !!

Just gonna relax now !


Date: Saturday, October 16, 2010
Title: Rara Gestra :D

Hello hello beybehs ! OMG . and yess , i've cut my hair .. Phuu . Felt so different since then , as if i'm not me yknow . Alot of things are happening right now but i just have accept it as that's life . Having my love ones in my life , WOW . Thanks to them and God . Seriously . Loves . Hahs . Things are changing and its going smoothly , slowly ? hmm .. It's been a long time i didn't blog cause i really don't know what to talk about , Sorry . hehs . So i'll ry to update soon ayee ..


Will be changing my blogskin soon.
i'll link you guys when i totally have my free time .


Takecare !!
Winks .


Date: Thursday, October 7, 2010
Title: :)

Hey hey hey ! sorry for the lack of updates .. hmm . i kept on forgetting to post ! Sorry.
So for the past few days , have been taking my N levels . Tomorrow will be the last paper that i'm gonna take . huhu . After that can rest and enjoy babe ! nyeheh . But right , this is the damn sway part , the results are release in the mid month of december and fucking hell , it's either gonna be on my birthday that's 16 dec or after the day of my birthday that's on the 17 dec . Tsk . My day le ...... !!!! Kay nevermind .
So have been getting along with things so fine .. I'm so fine ! :D
Learn new things , i think ? hah . I don't know how to say but everthing is getting pretty smooth , as ... i'm having my lovely friends ! Especially zoe sayangg and Arh joy arh ...~~ :D
Cheers ! haha .
On tuesday that has just passed , have been working from 11pm until the next morning non stop at giant tamp near ikea . Damn sleepy and tired uh .. Worked with val , wafiq , acin and some of our friends and we did made new friends ! hahah . so yeah !!! :D im gonna meet my beloved sis baby Soon !! huhu ! i miss her yknow . yeahh ... hahahahh :D LOL  .

Okayy okayy ! till here then ayee :)
Peace ! winks .

P.S ,i'm in love with this song ; The Truth by Conor Maynard :)
Search it in youtube ayee :) hahahah .


Date: Sunday, September 26, 2010
Title: follow the flow .. :DD




hey hey ! nyeheh .
Okayyokay ! This few days have been going out ? yupp .
Went for visiting for hari raya , with my friends ! yup . Sorry cause i didnt upload up the pictures . Wanna view the pictures , all in my facebook account !!!!! yup yup .
I feel so broke nowadays yknow !! freak . Must save to piggy bank alr . hmm ..

See the picture above ?
Whatever that is gonna happen to our life, must be strong and never give up even though how hard it takes . Even though you're alone or what, it doesn't mean that you're not loved . You are yknow ! :DD Must follow the flow of our life ..... and that's what i'm trying to do now :)
Yupp yupp !!! :D


Oh , and by the way ;
This really made me go haywire and sort and shout out alot of vulgar words and just get so mad and crazy ! Im like urgh ! you ! make me so ,, Fuck youu !!!! Seriously !!!! i'm fucking hating you to the core . Why are you so fucking no face uhr ????? Still dare wanna come to my house and visit for hari raya ??? eh fuck uhr !!!! Somemore wanna bring your girlfriend up ? heh . Funny uhr you... ! cb !! you got me sort eh !! i asked my friend again some questions . OH . still wanna try asking me again ? NB . And you're such a low face person !!! seriously . Wanna wait under my blk & dont wanna go up to my house. let the others go up and wait for them . huh . why ? Can't face my parents after what you've done to me ? feel guilty huh ? If you did dare to come, i'll slap your fucking face infront of your girlfriend and pissed you off and embarass yourself infront of others . You're the worst guy that all your ex-es had loved uh ! especially me ! I'm sorry to say this , I'm like fucking hell cursing you whenever i saw you or heard something that got to do with you . You make burn in hell , Fucker !!!
Ooops . i'm sorry .




* i guess , i'm not interested in guys anymore .
 


Date: Friday, September 24, 2010
Title: what the fuck is wrong uh ?

I don't know what the fuck is really wrong this few days . I got so fucked up and irritated sometimes in some situation . What the heck is wrong man ?! Fuck . In school i can't concentrate that much but i'm really pushing myself to just focus ! Slapping myself especially .
things keeps on bothering me like , urgh ! tsk . I'm just not at the right place . seriously . please . Okay , skip ! enough.

MUST BE STRONG .
MUST !!!


I LOVE MY LOVELY ONES , YAY !!! :D ahaas.


Date: Thursday, September 23, 2010
Title: Sigh ..

Things really don't get so well right now ! REALLY ! It's affecting my life since the 2 days back that i got so dumb ! Fucking get myself in . I didnt really expect this to happen but it happened that day . First person i get to contact was zoe sayangg , SECRETLY somemore . urgh ! One fucking idiot officer pissed me off and get the hell out of me by his words . Fuck to myself also . Since then , i felt lost, so cold , so dumb , so miserable ! VERY !
After all the things that has been settled , "thing" pull me down like seriously .
Didnt went to school the next day cause of a "reason" .
Have been meeting up with zoe sayangg and joycelyn . I'm so like , greatful and thankful to have them in my life . After losing someone's trust and i know that i'll never get it back . I'm really sorry . Now gonna stick with wonderful friends of mine . Nomore nonsense anymore ! nomore !!! urgh .

SPEECHLESS AND OUT OF WORDS.
GOT SO LOST SINCE THEN.
CONFUSED.
i DON'T KNOW .

Will update asap .


Date: Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Title: What's up w the life right now ?

Sorry guys for the lack of updates and for not blogging for a really long time .
Life for me have been messed up . Didnt know whats happening to me right now. It sucks yknow . Have been going bad to worst in school . Issues in school . Alot uh ! Have been slacking with my friends and some of the days, studying . Hari raya had started long time ago , went to visit my relatives and i asked for forgiveness from my family members  and cried . sigh . N level is also coming up soon again on the 4th october . hmm .. Please wake up the hell out of youfarah ! urgh !

Have been finding for someone to be by my side, someone who can guide me through in my life, someone who can support, be the one who knows what's right or wrong for me, everything . The one whom i could really can share everything with . And i really know now that the person is my akak bby . Met her just now and told her everything ! She was really dissapointed on me for what i've been doing everything as she doesn't expect thisto happen to me . Yes, i know that she have been busy with her work and we've drifted apart for a long time . i miss her so badly  , seriously . After showing her my results, I felt so bad. Since the last time i've met her before today, i really dont know what to say about myself. Now , she'll be the one knowing what i'm going to do , where am i going after school cause ii'll be informing her everything. She wants the best of me. It's for my own good . Akak , thanks for everything . I know i've dissapointed you and i'm really sorry. I'm really lost and confused w everything right now. I didnt really know that you really care for me this much and i'm thankful to have you. Seriously . Haiyy .. Thanks akak and lastly i'm really sorry and i'll try my best okayy ? .. iloveyou .


Date: Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Title: Everything is being messed up ! FML .

Hey peeps !
Sorry for the lack of updates . Damn sorry as my laptop is spoilt and ive been going home late these days when i'm not supposed to Have been going to school and after school went to meet up with my friends up and slack . Some of the days have been going or night study and quality learning class . So yeahh , have been slacking with my friends :)

Sigh . Everything is being messed up now . Without knowing the reason why . It sucks , seriously . FUCK MY LIFE LARH HOR . haiyyaa ..
& to that someone , THANKS FOR USING ME AYE . Cant youu just tell me straight forward ? Am i a banker to youu huh ? Cibai . Talk shit somemore ! Shouldn't have meet youu at the first place uhr .. Fuck ! I HATE YOUU ! Wo hen ni larh !! Fuck youu !

I miss my dearest sis totally . I miss like fucking hell like MISS HER SO MUCH  ! AKAK (KAK BBY) , I WANNA MEET YOUU SOON ! I LOVE YOUU ! WINKS .


Date: Friday, August 6, 2010
Title: I'm just so confused & i'm stuck at the moment ..

Heyy ..
Okayyokayy , all i cann say is , everything that's in life , really change . Like CHANGE !
haiyy .. have been going to school & after school meet up with my group & i'm so like gonna find for a new job that is more worth it , I'm feeling so broke nw ! OMG . Farah , relax . Sigh . I just have to move on . I'll try to change for the better . I'm just thinking too much about alot of stuffs & i don't even know why . I felt the angel's cry ..

Just keep on putting on a smile so that others will think that i'm okayy .
But , ?? Sigh .

To dearest love :
I didn't know what's happening right now . I didn't know why is everything changing all of a sudden . After meeting you up & talk things out with you , i really don't know what to say . I understand & I've tried . Youu , I've tried my best to provide youu everything that youu need , I've really tried . I know that you are stress with a lot of things , i'm like thinking of the ways to help youu solve , but .. sigh . I'm so like out of place in some situation when i'm with youu . am i crazy or falling in love ? ♥ I'm not trying to say that you've change , whad i cann say is , i'll accept youu , for who youu are . It's not normal , yes , i know . I'm sorry if i'm not perfect enough for youu . I've known what i'm going to say to youu but it's just hard for me to say it out . I don't know why . do youu know that i've been missing youu when i didn't meet youu ? Until , you said to me that youu miss me & i was like ; am i dreaming ? . Omg . i seriously don't know what else am i gonna say ..
All i know ; i just love youu .

Sigh.

; I'm stuck in the moment with you 


Date: Friday, July 30, 2010
Title: Dear diary..

hellohello !
Sorry for not blogging this few days .
okayyokayy , about my life , i seriously don't know what to say .
Have been with my group all this while and have been meeting my love .. 
Like everyday ?? whuu ! :D
like summary everyday im with my group :))

To dearest love :
Okayy , after knowing youu ..
its like the best thing of my life ..
Sometimes i don't even know why i could feel this way ..
But like talk serious , i love youu :)
and youu know abt it already .. I keep asking myself , can i make youu mine and will i have the chance to be with youu  and will youu accept me ?
Also , sometimes i think negatively like , okayy , confirm i tarkkarn dpt youu nyer ..
Sigh . okayy , whatever i cnn say is , I LOVE YOUU !!!! :D
Winks .

I love youu bby :)

To dearest mummy and daddy:
I don't know how to start on what i'm gonna say .
Yes, i may be bad after what is happening right now . I'm sorry .
I've think it through , and yeahh i want freedom but i also want youu both .
I know i can't live on my own outside and survive on my own but it's just that i don't want to just depend on youu mummy , daddy . Maafkarn farah .
I don't know why it's hard for me to say this all out to youu ..
Honestly , farah sayangkarn mama and ayah and i know i didn't show it and prove it to youu both . Yes , sometimes i've been rude to youu but i didn't even mean to be that way . I may be the worst in this family and i'm sorry . I won't even make trouble outside cause i know youu guys don't like it and you'll worry abt me and you've warn me that youu guys won't care abt me anymore . I don't even know why , that mummy just shoot out that i drink but i didn't ! Tsk . Everything change .. Especially me , but i know what i'm doing mummy , daddy . Mummy , daddy , i appreciate what you guys have done for me .. I'm sorry for all my mistakes that i've done . Haiyy ..
I don't know what else i could say ..
Forgive me mummy , daddy ..


Everything started to change ..
is it because of me ? ..



Date: Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Title: :)) jyeahahahs !

Hellohello ! :))
errmm , so about yesterday ;
as usual met up with my group to eat breakfast , but at last some of them didn't turn up -_-
haiyys . nevermind . Then after school yesterday met up with my group again .. i can't remember much abt yesterday . Gosh ! STM . Then after that , we headed to clementi .
So after that , sit at one of this void deck to study && at last i've completed my coursework ! huhu !! :D
After studying , Slacked . While slacking , met with one of this girl :)) Almost everytime i went to clementi and bought chocolate , she kept smiling at me . Malu sehy ! hahs .
So at last i could chat with her :) So blahblahblah , she gotta go . So texted with her .
And i gotta went home . So as she's busy , until i reached home, everything.. i waited for her message and call until i nearly fall asleep and yeahh ! she called me :D
Chatted with her for hours . So chat chat chat, she gotta put down the phone readyy . And nytenyte to us ! :)
And TODAY ;
As usual , today morning ate breakfast with darren . Then gotta go school . After school find for my group again as there's jamming . So yeahh . Went to clementi again and ate our lunch at ananas cafe . While i was sitting down , waited for my dearest as i really wanna meet her , dont know whye . So i fetch her infront of her workplace and went to meet up with my group. Was freaking damn shy , that darren know smtg ! tsk . Kept disturbing me that i like her , haiyyooo !!! Kayy nevermind . After that , my dearest gotta go as she gotta meet her parents. Blahblahblah . Went to ghim moh slack after that :) So yeahh , that's all for today .
Till now , i am waiting for her message !

I GOT A CRUSH ON YOUU ! :DD


Date: Saturday, July 17, 2010
Title: Dear diary ..

Hellohello !
HAHA . so today , wake up in the morning as usual ..
Blahblahblah ..
Today , suppose to meet up with darren at 11am but i wake up at a wrong time .
So , met up with arhjas at commonwealth first ..
After that , darren came . Waited for carabelle at the busstop near koufu .
So after carabelle reached , took bus to clementi to meet up barry .
( I bought my studying stuffs .. ?? ) hmm ..
So slack with them too ..
After that , clare came and meet us at clementi . yeahhyeahh ..
After that , went to holland and slack .. Had alot of fun today , especially in the bus . :DD

around 9plus , went off and took bus .
so tmr , working . Must wake up early , OMG .
Tmr , cnt see my group ! .. sigh ..
Monday cnn ! huhu xp !


Will update soon alryte ! :D


Whyeam i so random ? tsk .


Date: Friday, July 16, 2010
Title: Dear diary ..

hellohello ! damn sorry for not updating my blog .. Sigh .
Have been busy studying , working , slacking :)
Yeahh . This few days , made new friends and yeahh , now we're close :)
Like all of a sudden ? :D
Have been stress thinking of the upcoming exams and other things i have to think of.
In school didn't know why , i'm like doing my own stuffs . Felt so tired and sleepy dont know why . Tsk .
Nevermind . Must tahan ..
And at last i could check my profile everything . gosh .
Almost everyday , go home late . haiyyaa ..

hmm .. i don't know what to type readyy ..
have been busy .. Will update soon :)


I'll try to make a change ..



Date: Friday, July 9, 2010
Title: Dear diary ..

So today , as usual .. school was okayy but kinda boring .
I dont know why ..
So after school , Stayed at school for awhile ..
After that , before going to work , slack with jas and her other friends ..
Yeahh . played true or dare .. but it's like totally a dare game . Haiyyoo ..
Felt so paisey because of a few things . Wohoo ! :0
After slacking followed up with jas and one of her friend to queenstown library .
Yeahh .. after that , I'm off to work ..
Work was abit tiring for me but its okayy .. And hell yeahh .. my nose bleed during that tyme . sigh . Blahblahblah .. Ended work as per normal .
After that , met up with kak bby for awhile and i went home .

So yeahh ,, Reached home everything ..
Suddenly , Nose bleeding again . Urgh .
Haiyys ...
 Got so sick this few days .
So thats all for today ..


Dehdah ..


Date: Thursday, July 8, 2010
Title: Dear diary ..

H
Hello beybehs ! :)
Ahaas . so today , school was okayy ..
But , i also had my N level english oral .. Tsk .
I hope i did well just now .. OMG . It was damn scary once i stepped inside the hall and my heart was beating so fast like chu chu train . Sigh . The examiner that test me look so unfriendly & i'm smiling to them throughout the oral exam uhr . What's wrong with me ?
Haiyyooo ..
So after that , went for work ..
Ended early today .. And meet up with my DEAREST KAK BBY ! :D huhu .
Happy taw aku ! i miss her soo much cann ? :))
Yeahhyeahh ! i don't know what else i wanna type ..

I'm just so happy uhr ! :D
 so i think that's all for today ..
Will update soon :)


Aku sayang kak bby ! :D
 Loves ..  


Date: Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Title: ?

Hellohello ! :)
So today , went to school as usual . But i don't feel like i wanna go school as i'm feeling so sick and i'm forced to . So as usual , trying my very best to concentrate and focus and understand about the topic . yeahh . Youu cann do it rara ! Sigh .
After school , had to stay back for chemistry test , after chem test , at 3.30pm went for Quality learning for 1 hour . After the class ended , smoke outside 6c for awhile with val . After that , walked with val to queenstown . So , she went home by train & i took bus as i'm working .
Felt so sick while working & tiring . Haiyyaa . Must tahan larhs .
Today is okayy for me . I guess ??



A person in school ,  is making me to find trouble with him . Seriously , like fuck ! Sial , buto ! When youu walked past me with your girlfriend , wanna roll eyes on me for whad and step muker garang & kerek buwat aper sial ??!! aku ader hutang dlm hidop kaw perr sial !! Ehy jantan , kaw pyke kaw bnyk punyer baek perr ?? Lepas satu , satu . Lepas nieh saper plakk mangse kaw ?! Youu cnt stay single is it ? KNN CB . Tarkmu jady dramatic sngt uhr , ckp yg kaw saket jantong larh , aper larh . Burik . Darh ader mataer , lagy2 ex kaw lagy .. Teros terang kaw pandai ckp , pentengkn kwn as they are the one give youu blessing , whatever shit uhr . Skrg aperr sial ?? luper kwn lamer kaw sendiri ?? Ehy sial , aku tark perlu kaw nyer jeleng nieh sumer uhr . Kaw nark complain kat mataer kaw psl aku ker , psl dulu kerr , pegy bilang uhr siol ! tuh darh lepas uhr . Aku tawu aper yg betol uhr . Pyke aper yg kaw darh buwat kt aku buto ! Pyke kaw bnyk punyer jujor perr ? Pompan kaw belom nmpk true colours kaw uhr . Aper dier tawu ckp , " alah , laky mcm gituh " . Kaw tarkyah nark ckp2 psl aku kt pompan kaw ataw kwn kaw smpi dorang asek tngk2 aku . Kaw tarkkarn slamat uhr .
Kaw tunggu jerr satu hary . tarkyah nark maky2 kt blakang aku biler kaw walk past aku .
KAW MEMANG PEH SIAL !





Everybody sees it's youu ..
  But i'm the one that lost the view ..
I miss youu ..


Date: Saturday, July 3, 2010
Title: Dear diary ..

Ermm ..
So , have been schooling ..
Studied so hard till i can't take it anymore ..
Sometimes doze off during lesson but wake myself up by slapping myself ..
Have been so tired working for the three days straight ..
Sigh ..
N level oral is coming , so must try my best ..
After that prelim exam coming .. Must try my very very best ..
N level is coming , so must try my very very freaking best ..
YEAHH !


Tomorrow will be working again .. :)


will update soon again .
Loves .




There is no guarantee that this life is easy ..


Date: Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Title: Dear diary ..



Hello Readers :)
So today is the second day of school . hmm . Started to get stressed up . hmm ..
Today , school was okayy but in the morning , i felt something is missing that i didn't do & someone is missing . haiyy ..
 See the pictures above ? Took it during English lesson as there's no teacher . So yeahh .
So .. after school went out of school , went back to school again to meet my teacher . Stayed at school for awhile , after that meet up with fhadila to slack . Then , after slacking i have to go & meet up with my aunty at bukit merah . Blahblahblah ..
Went home , but before that met up with two people to settle one problem . after it's settled , went home and freshed up myself . So , today is okayy . hmm ..


I miss youu ..



Date: Saturday, June 26, 2010
Title: Dear diary ..

Sorry for not updating my blog this few days . As i'm kinda busy with work and stuff . hmm .
So have been going for work straight the past few days . And yesterday after work , meet up with zieta at vivo . Waited for quite long but its okayy .
So after meeting up with her , we headed to one of this perfume shop but in the end , the perfume she want is out of stock .
So after that , we headed to woodlands to go to Singapore Sports School to watch one of her friend's football match . While watching , we shared some of our life story & things that we're comfortable talking about . At last , the match ended . We walked out from the school slowly and talked & decided to walk to woodlands interchange . Until her friend called ask to meet up for awhile . Blahblahblah .. By then , met up with one of my ex as he's in the soccer team .
After that , took bus to interchange & headed for awhile to Mac as they wanna buy food . After that me , zieta , zieta's friend & my ex went back to interchange to accompany while waiting for bus . Chatted for awhile until we missed 961 last bus & took 963 instead .
So yeahh .. That's all for yesterday .
So for TODAY , stayed at home as i'm not working . But met with one of my friend , under my blk as i wanna smoke . So yeahh . After that met up with Zieta at segar lrt for awhile before she's off to work . Blahblahblah , Then she gotta go for work .
So yeahh , today just stayed at home . hmm ..

I miss youu ..
     && i miss saturdays too ..
as we always went out together with others . haiyyss ..
i need youu , i miss youu , i love youu ..


Date: Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Title: Dear diary ..

Today in the morning , went to school with aini ..
After that went to Bukit merah to have our breakfast and planned to go town .
Before going home to get ready for the outing , we went to jurong point for awhile to walkwalk and view nice stuffs .
After that , we went home . Blah blah blah , Reached home , fresh myself up , had my lunch at home , after that , get ready to meet up with aini & dian .
Met up with them at cineleisure KFC . After that , walk around town . Went to orchard ion , window shopping at LV & other shops :)
After that headed to esplanade to slack and took some pictures together . so jalanjalan until we reached one of this brigde , can't remember what called . Then , we walked again , chatted and laugh out loud until we reached the marina bay sands and the casino . Yeahhyeahh .
Got so tired of walking and decided to go home .
So , Dian took her bus first , after that me , lastly , aini . So yeahh , had a great day with them today :) The pictures , i will upload as soon as possible :)
So that's all for today .

Even though i'm smiling outside .. i still think of youu as i can't stop thinking of youu .. My mind is full of youu ..

And yes , I miss youu so much ,, a**k :((
What's happening right now ?
What did i do wrong this time ?
Please tell me ..
Haiyy ..
   


Date: Sunday, June 20, 2010
Title: Dear diary ..


Hello ! hahahs . So today , spent my whole day at home as i'm not working today . yeahh :)
I just remembered that today is father's day !! huhu . HAPPY FATHER'S DAY to my daddy ! Gave him a surprise just now with my cuzzies that are staying with me :) hees .
After that , took some pictures together . Above , are the pictures . Sorry cause my mom is not inside as she don't want me to post hers . hahs :DD So after eating the cake everything , me and my cuzzies went to take pictures together in our room . Crazy us :D teehee ! After that , tell my parents that we're going down to the playground nearby to take pictures & yeahh , for me to isap rokok ! :) So yeahh , me and my cuzzies were so noisy , taking pictures , hahahs :DD ! I had great day today . So here i am typing all out about today !! :D

Happy Father's Day to my daddy & also to all dads in the whole wide world :D ! Yeahh !!

Things are really changing . And idk whether is it me that's silly to think like that .. But i just felt that way .. Honestly , i really miss youu ..

*To the one that i really love and treat like one : if you're reading this , imysm .. Am i being silly to think this way or .. ?? Haiyy .. It started to change after your thing ends & after i'm off from your sight .. haiyy ..